the snotty life.

I was walking to school today and some asian guy mid 40s almost lookin like hes close to homeless was talkin to me via hand motions since my headphones were on. He was asking to borrow my phone then gave me a sad face as i kinda just shook my head and walked passed him. I felt sooo bad walking past him and not offering my phone, but if i had stayed i would been late for my class...so i hop on the bus and im just so upset with myself thinking maybe he really couldve used my phone since there are no more pay phones around these days. And it just boggled my mind and as I was contemplating and really upset with it on the bus, being a little down from the terrible action i had just made, i look over and I see the same guy digging in his nose while walking as if he'd find some phone or some kind of change to pay someone to let them use their phone. I guess there was a reason after all that I didnt let him use my phone. All things happen for a reason... watch who you lend your phone too because there might just be a surprise when they return it back to you. MUAHAHA. the snotty life.

exactly.

I can't wait to have kids of my own or even my niece or nephew. STAT STAT mae mae!

why do these amazing quotes come out after hes gone? Makes me wonder...nonetheless, POIFECT.

“because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure — these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. remembering that you are going to die is the best way i know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. you are already naked. there is no reason not to follow your heart.” Steve Jobs

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary" -Steve Jobs

youre killin me, jobs. RIP to one of the most intelligent geniuses that I lived to see and has made my life easier.....to cheat.

"If i ever reach heaven i expect to find three wonders there: first, to meet some I had not thought to see there; second, to miss some I had expected to see there; and third, the greatest wonder of all, to find myself there." -unknown

Theres just so many things in life you live and learn by. We change everyday along with the rest of the world updating ourselves one.by.one. You learn to let go when things/people arent meeting you 50% of the way, to fight back when the going gets tough, and understand things were meant to be with or without for a reason. And through all those triumphs and tribulations you learn a little part of yourself in every situation. But no matter how old you get, how much you've aged, and how much you've endured, you'll never completely find yourself. But one thing you will eventually learn is to never let your past define your present and future. So go out there, explore and expect the unexpected, cause when you do that, you find yourself in ways you would have never imagined yourself to be. And when you feel like you've finally found yourself, keep moving cause chances are theres always going to be bigger and better things for you.

a old friend

You know those friends where you grew up with them..the friends that lived right down the block from you, the friends you traveled with, slept over with, played mall madness with, and learned to ride bikes and rollerblades together? HAHA ok maybe not the mall madness part but yea those friends, the childhood friends that never leave your mind no matter how old you get cause the memories were JUST that great. But theres always that one friend that always had something behind the scenes that was just not as healthy as the usual childhood life. And that no matter how happy you were and no matter how much fun you had with them, you always had something deep inside you that felt..well for lack of better words for now, bad..bad for them. And as time went on, you grew apart and wished everyday that things didnt have to change between the friendship and that we didnt have to move on with our lives separately. But still living vicariously through their lives just hoping one day, they'd find themselves again and be happier than ever. Somewhere along the lines of this rant, I dont know why but I dont think I could be any more happier for THAT one childhood friend which whom i miss dearly has finally found what shes been searching for all her life.

After 22 years of searching, wondering, and thinking she finally found her mom via FACEBOOK. HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN? It's almost like a Shawn Hunter from Boy meets world story..and somewhere in my heart as corny as it sounds is actually relieved and more than happy to know that she finally pieced together a piece of her life that meant so much to her growing up 22 years later.

"Strength is happiness. strength is itself victory. In weakness and cowardice there is no happiness. When you wage a struggle, you might win or you might lose. But regardless of the short-term outcome, the very fact of your continuing to struggle is proof of your victory as a human being" -Daisaku Ikeda

dirt brain.

My dad sent me this picture as an "eye test", what do you see in this picture if you see the girls butt in the back, you need to go to the optometrist and in my opinion, sign up for underage predators @ underagepredators.com. hahaha what a great picture. And if you didnt originally see the butt first thing and really saw her arm, congratulations..you have no sense of humor.

Lost in a Dream.

October 1st already?! sweet jesus, where has this year even gone, i remember it still just starting the year out like it was just yesterday. 31 more days until halloween and to figure out what im gonna be this year. Too bad im not going anywhere exciting to explore this time around..First day of the month and i'm in some pms mood of watching love and basketball to sleep and watching it again first thing when i wake up. Gahd, watching it in HD is WAYYY BETTER.

"In bed my real love has always been the sleep that rescued my by allowing me to dream"- Luigi Pirandello